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The Power of Surrender
Stepping into the Flow
On Good Friday in 1999, I was given 24 hours
to pack my life into a bag and get out.
A pivotal moment
A transformative experience
Back then I had been living on the coast of
southern Spain for a few years.
It was a beautiful place to be and a bit surreal
at the same time.
There were Spanish residents - retired foreign
residents - holiday makers - people from all
walks of life.
One of the challenges was to find a long term
place to stay that was affordable as prices
skyrocketed during the holiday seasons.
Often times people had to share larger
apartments or houses.
Another challenge was not only to find a job,
but also to get paid for it.
It was not unusual that at a certain point
someone found themselves without any money
and kicked out of their shared accommodation.
Quite scary to watch and somehow I knew, one
day it would be me.
I was sharing an apartment with my friend
Christine for many months.
For quite a while now we had come together for
a certain period of time and then split to come
together at another juncture.
She was a teacher for "The New Consciousness"
and a channeler.
We had our manifestation low at different times
but now, we both were struggling and went
from fasting to starving.
The lease was in her name and she threatened
to kick me out.
I had helped her out of struggle many times,
but now I was no longer useful.
I failed to have enough money to stay and did
not find another place to move into.
Christine declared "My Spiritual Guidance told me
that you have to leave and get out of here within 24 hours."
Her Spiritual Guidance, of course!
It felt like threat to my existence
but then my body relaxed into a deep peace,
peace that transcends all understanding.
My mind was busy
organizing how to pack my belongings.
For the weekend - for the coming weeks
stuff only needed now and then and
the big bag for all the essentials during my
transitioning phase.
Where to go from here?
I could not feel myself ending up on the beach.
It was too early to live on the beach, the nights
were cold and the humidity was unpleasant.
In the morning Christine commanded
"Get all your stuff out of your room and onto the
laundry balcony.
Get everything out of here until 8pm
or I will throw it in the trash."
Each night around 9pm the garbage was taken away.
I grabbed my big bag, stepped out of the house
and was greeted by radiant sunshine and fresh
air.
It was chilly, peaceful and serene.
There was peace that transcends all understanding.
Nobody was on the street - everything was closed.
It was far too early and it was Good Friday
a high Christian Holiday.
I had stepped into a different state of being
into the State of Flow.
All looked familiar but felt different.
So here I was. What to do?
I heard
"Your feet are now in charge of your path.
Let go and let God"
I felt joy rising inside - my body relaxed completely.
I surrendered into the situation.
My feet went down the empty sunny streets,
downhill towards the small shopping area
next to the sea.
I was wondering what comes next.
Peter's car was parked in front of his
real estate office.
I did office work for him and helped with
clients as needed.
I was overjoyed to see his car.
He was supposed to be already on vacation.
I stepped into his office.
Peter looked at me in surprise.
I told him my story and he laughed.
"So this time it's you!
During the holidays you can store your stuff
in our adjoining room.
Rob will be back in a minute. He can help you
get everything out of the old place."
The joy in my body was expanding.
In no time I was back at my old place
to pick up everything.
Christine was surprised by the speed and
the unexpected help I had found.
When everything had been stored in Peter's
office Rob offered to me
"If you don't have a place to stay tonight,
you can sleep on the sofa in our living room.
During the holidays we have the house full
with friends and family."
And now? What's next?
At the end of the shopping area was
a beautiful park.
The mimosa trees were in full bloom.
Lush yellow blossoms everywhere and the
sweet feel of spring in the air.
My feet went to a big tree and my body sat down
leaning against the tree trunk.
I felt like merging with the tree, the sunshine
and the fresh air.
Life felt so good!
My mobile rang bringing me back into the present.
My good friend Daniel was calling.
He was like the dad I never had in my life.
I was younger than his youngest daughter,
there was a soul bond between us.
I knew he had his house full of guests from
Canada and I owed him about $200.
That's probably why he was calling.
Should I answer his call?
My hand decided YES while my mind was worrying.
Daniel was overjoyed to talk to me.
His partner had left for the UK to see her
grandchildren and his guests had got stuck at
Madrid airport.
He was all by himself, feeling lonely and bored
and asked me
"Would you like to come with me to our little
favorite restaurant in the country side?"
Of course I would love to join him.
It felt like a miracle - a prayer answered.
Daniel picked me up, we had a lovely trip into
the mountains to this unique restaurant.
A sweet old farm house with orchards and
tables underneath the flowering trees.
We were enjoying the food, the beauty of the
place and each others company.
My sense of joy was still expanding.
Daniel asked me, how my business was doing
and about the situation with my roommate.
In my joyful state I shared what had happened
and he felt I was kidding him.
My situation and my joyful state did not match
nor make sense to him.
He finally got it and offered me to stay in
one of his guest rooms to stabilize myself.
Daniel took good care of me, holding space for
emotional healing and my money flow to recover.
What could have been a disaster had turned
into a blessing.
I found a small place to rent just for myself.
It was not far from the place I had been
kicked out of and close to the beach.
One morning, while walking along the beach,
there was a woman coming my direction.
That early in the morning there was hardly
anyone on the beach.
It felt like the woman had noticed me,
she stopped and walked straight towards me
Was this Christine? Yes, it was her.
She said hello and told me what had happened
since our ways had parted.
Now she was facing to be kicked out by the
next day and she asked me, if she could stay
with me.
Here she was again.
The next round of the dance between us.
I knew what this would be like and dreaded it.
This time, I did not react the old way.
Instead of trying to control or defend myself
I took a deep breath and chose to let go.
I watched myself replying "That's OK with me"
even though it was not.
In that quiet moment of surrender
the old emotional cycle broke.
For the first time, I was at peace with it.
Life often brings back the same test
until we learn to respond with grace.
Ask yourself:
Where in
your life are you currently
pushing against reality?
What
painful pattern keeps repeating
because you are afraid to let go?
What would
happen if you
chose surrender instead of struggle?
Breaking deep cycles alone can feel overwhelming.
If you are ready to
find peace - gain clarity and step into your true purpose
I invite you to talk with me.
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